27 Sep 2011

或许很冷漠，或许很无情，但我欣赏此刻的我，专注于自己的不快乐，而不是别人的生与死。我以为我会很辛苦，很想要去关心那些不值得的人，但显然的，我没有。心里还是不爽占上风，是好事，因为我很少会为自己着想。

很多次，我都会忘记，又会掉落极有可能让我难过的陷阱，不过，此刻的无情让我知道我没有。或许过几天后，我又打回原型，但不管了，只要现在开心就好。

管他的，你怎么死都不管我的事，小气的我就是这样。

你不是不管吗？那就这样吧！

26 Sep 2011

有点寂寞，甚至是受伤的感觉。我知道这是为什么，但是不是很想去面对。

总是会为了一个人，一个不在乎自己的人，而忽略了其他努力带给自己欢乐的人。我很想不去理会不值得的人，但心总是不听使唤，像是着了魔，理智失去了，有的竟是无聊的难过。

我该怎么做呢？

怎样才能被这些无聊琐事释放，不再被约束，脱离它，找到快乐？

我很讨厌此刻的自己。

Friends Stop At A Point Where Nothing Too Personal Involves

I wonder why cant friends be as close as family... I do regards my close friends like own family members which is why I will show them my most true sefl, my temper, my emotion, my feeling without hiding at all, but apparently, friends are not the ones whom you should show all these. You can only show happiness, you can only share joy. What about sadness, upsetness? No, you cant, or you will be said as problematic. Friends only stop at a point where nothing too personal involves. Thats the friendship I get all the time, and I have to accept it because that how it is going along. No choice no choice.

GE 2011

I have a real mixed feeling over GE 2011, on one hand I am happy with the fact Singaporeans finally speak up their mind and not being controlled politically, but I am also find it a pity that some good leaders have to leave due to GRC rule. Why can't everyone stand as one, and really serve the country without wanting to only stand out as their own party? I am not a singaporean, but I do appreciate the stability of the country, you can never know how it feel like to be under a corrupted ruling government for some countries.

Anyway, I have a real bad arguments with a really close friend of mine due to me making comment over an obvious fact, to her, I was making some personal attack, for goodness sake, I didn't, I was blunt with my words but I didnt mean anything evil for your bloody info. Get your emotion out of your head and judge me by who I am, feeling extremely pissed with you, shit!

No matter what, you as my friend, should know I am who I am, stop thinking the way you want and making me becoming like what you are thinking of. You shit! yes, you definitely are this time round.

Pissed pissed pissed!

欢笑背后流着眼泪，坚强背后隐藏着寂寞。“没有女人喜欢被称赞坚强，是有所缺失，才被迫自强。外表的坚强可以是女人最大的痛楚”-滕丽名。。。我不想否认，我并不希望被冠上“坚强”的标签，因为真实的我其实很懦弱，会为了芝麻绿豆的事而掉泪。但，只因倔强，所以都会暗自擦干眼泪。所以真正的我既懦弱又倔强，无奈只能武装起来。其实我很希望不用武装自己，其实我的心真的受伤了，而且伤痕累累。。。